Not that ocean.

Oh, would you.

I’m not the angel you are looking for.

I’m not your solution, or even
Your brief hiatus from some
So painful solitude.
I am here, though.  And not leaving.
I am afraid though, and not gonna lie about it but I am

Afraid I’ll love you.

I’m afraid I’ll fall so far into your
Too good to be.
Too interesting to be
Too hardworking to be
Too loving to be
Just too much to be
True.

You know, I’m the one of us with the carrot.

You know I am the one more activated.
I have you captivated.
So, show me.

Good god you have me so captivated

I say

And here I am, am I asking for something I couldn’t ever
Give you anyway
I have built myself a house of straw,
So many stars shining brighter for it,
How do you bring that light to me?
You want all of me,
You’ll get it.
Ain’t nothing left we either have to lose
Or really to gain anyway.
I wasn’t missing you, before you came along,
But I sure as fuck am now.

Maybe I want you,
Maybe I don’t even know better.

Maybe I just want to be wanted and cared for
And to feel small and listened to and cherished for
Who I fucking am.
Rather than the ways that I just reflect someone's tenuous
Success.
Oh, to be worthwhile
Oh, for my thoughts and opinions to matter
Oh, for someone to pay all of that glorious Attention
So selfishly, to

Me.

Oh for someone to give me the same

Courtesy.

Every question ever asked was just an opening.
If I could change everything about me,

I’d keep it the same if I could keep it 

The same about you.
I know all of the times I was embarrassing.
My cheeks still flush hot today,
What is love even made of?
What are we even worth?

It takes an ocean not to break.
And I am not that ocean.

Oh I am not that ocean.