Absolution.

It's like something just fell into place.
Don't know if it was going back
Checking in to find that God was
Right where I left it
There between the desert and the sky

Or was it finding out it wasn't me, after all
That all the times you told me it was my fault
That I should have could have tried harder
But I found out when you told me I am broken, careless and
Not enough...
That you were lying.

Somehow something shifted
Some silent quake
Or quiet flood of "okay"
Swept all of my sickness down a drain.

Found a center in me
That I always knew was there, but thought I wasn't working hard enough
That I could rush to find it if I only tried harder.
Now I know it better that there wasn't really more to do.
I did as much as I knew how
and now,
I am just enough.

I've found that thing I have been looking for my whole life.
I've been forgiven for everything.
I have said all the Hail Marys,
Tallied up every right for wrong
And come back around, full-circle

To find that I am home.