N.R.E. and other drugs.

I'm afraid I'll never love anyone like that again.
I know, I know.
"How many relationships have you had in your life...?"
"And how many of them have lasted forever?"
None, it's true. I'll find another relationship I know.
But that love.
That love lasts forever, and I'm afraid I'll never feel like that again.
That rushing breath of need,
Fearsome and sweet
Holy and sacred and the very original sin.
That immediate understanding of Eve's secret dilemma:

Having eaten of your apple,
How can I taste another?
And will it ever, ever taste so true?

I knew in that moment that this, this is why this was invented
This, why it's forbidden, taboo.
I gave my everything in that instant, and received
It all in return- my whole body and my
Soul and my truth.
My ever-loving truth.
You took it all with you when you went
And left me here, on my knees with my head and my
Bleeding heart in my silly hands
As if they could speak for it.
Here: will I ever know that peace and that chaos and that
Terrible beauty, ultimate and defiant
That death, that life.
That immortality that only poets and dreamers and true lovers know
That I found in your arms...
Could I have it back?
Could I ever spread my wings like that and fly, again?

And if not, do you remember me the same?
Are your arms as filled and satisfied with God
As they ever were with me...?
And can you see and tell me, so that I can
Stop looking for you.
Stop waiting for you.

And start letting go.